WEEKEND HIATUS

ONE MUST STILL HAVE CHAOS IN ONESELF TO BE ABLE TO GIVE BIRTH TO A DANCING STAR. ~FRIEDRICH NIETZSCHE

This quote makes my wild mind these days seem acceptable, and even necessary.

The long weekend in ft. lauderdale went really well.

aside from the minor setback of my tire blowing on the highway it was smooth sailing. ft. lauderdale is a tropical storybook full of palm tree lined streets, inlets overflowing with yachts, and enough sunlight to make anyone understand why there are all the joggers and bikers along the roadside.

it really is beautiful and i will be visiting again soon. courtney and i had a blast like always. she informed me later that she received a citation for our late night yacht photo shoot. apparently the retired neighbors were awake watching the entire thing. whoops.

throughout the day i was in total dreamland until the nightlife threw me for a cruve ball. the clubs and bars proved i was a fish out of water in this tropical oasis. i like a more laid back atmosphere and although its fun to go all out i don't think i could put on the show every night out. and so, once again i've clawed my way back to jacksonville and pace around like a caged animal losing my mind and wondering what to do with myself.

p.s i sold my first dress online yesterday and ship it out today!!!!!!

p.p.s i am going to order a new usb cord for my camera today so i can start sharing.

LETSFINDSOMEBEAUTIFULPLACETOGETLOST.

Judging by the picture I'm sure you can make a few judgement calls on where I've decided to house hunt this weekend. I'm making an irrational decision and headed to sofla. I'd have to say that almost all of my decisions are met this way, so it's really not out of the ordinary that I'd pick up and move somewhere I've only visited for a total of two days. The principle of this move is that I get: more fashion, the beach, independence, and change. The downside is that I leave behind a few really good friends and family, whom aren't totally supportive of this relocation. Wish me luck!

Off to clear my criminal record from New Year's expired tag parking citation. Glad the officer was able to ring in the New Year while writing me a big, fat ticket on my windshield. Didn't they have other things to worry about like drunk drivers and overall human debauchery? I wonder if it was the same skeezy officer that asked my friend and I to meet him at Denny's when his shift was over? If so, I'm willing to reconsider.

Let's go get lost somewhere in the USA

I'm craving a change. Not so sure if a vacation will do the trick, maybe a cross country road trip: tax return, pup, and the open road. But more than that, it's going to take a lifestyle shift. I'm staying on the grind with developing my clothes and website. I've had enough of the restaurant industry to last me the rest of my life. So I need to find a substitute, ideally... with health insurance... and near a beach or city. Is that too much to ask? This entire idea of a new life has consumed me. My morning ritual has become coffee and craigslist to deter going outside in the cold weather. Aside from that, the pup has been running the show lately. I can't wait till she is big enough to go on long jogs in the morning and then allow a few hours for me to focus on me. For now, she's the baby. And has also become houdini, able to escape from any enclosure we threaten her with.

Happy Holidays! Quote to Start off the New Year.

"Creation seems to come out of imperfection. It seems to come out of a striving and a frustration, and this is where I think language came from. It came from our desire to transcend our isolation and have some sort of connection with one another. And it had to be easy when it was just simple survival. Like the word water, we came up with a sound for that, or saber tooth tiger right behind you, we came up with a sound for that. But when it gets really interesting is when we use that same system of symbols to communicate all the abstract and intangible things that we’re experiencing. What is frustration? Or what is anger?

Or love?

When I say love, the sound comes out of my mouth and it hits the other person’s ear, travels through this Byzantine conduit in their brain, through their memories of love, or lack of love, and they register what I’m saying and they say yes, they understand. But how do I know they understand, because words are inert, they’re just symbols, they’re dead, you know? And so much of our experience is intangible. So much of what we perceive cannot be expressed. It’s unspeakable. And yet, you know when we communicate with one another, and we feel that we’ve connected, and we think that we’re understood, I think we have a feeling of almost spiritual communion. And that feeling might be transient, but I think it’s what we live for."

— Waking Life

Girl Crush

Erin Wasson is an ex-model/ designer for the new RVCA line. She has two crashpads in NYC and Venice Beach, Cali. An air conditioned office suspended in her backyard trees. A few pretty cool tattoos. A pet pitbull, and a beautiful husband and family. Would definitely consider trading lives with her for a day....

C o m m i t t e d

“Marriage is not a game for the young,” the author says. “There’s a huge amount of sacrifice and compromise involved. If I could say four words to anyone under 25 who’s considering getting married, they’d be: "Wake up, slow down."

Divorce rates have risen since women have been given rights and proved themselves independent and successful. Whereas in the past women stayed married because they were dependent or men were too busy working to worry about a wife's affair or other problems.

As a young girl, I wasn't the one watching disney fairy tales or wedding my Barbie and Ken dolls. I was riding horses, building forts, and sewing clothes for my animals, but I was also telling my mom my future husband would be a cowboy.

I've only been in love once. I want to grow from that experience and have time to digest it. I don't want to repeat patterns or carry baggage. I believe that there are multiple soul mates and different levels of love that exist. I think too many people settle into marriage because of timing, children, finances, or simply geography. I hope I don't fall into that category. I can't wait to read this book because it is built for marriage skeptics and I while I gladly welcome a solid relationship, I fall into the target market wary of forever unions...

www.RichardandBancroft.com

Birthday weekend was great. Drank a little too much, which resulted in the phone being submerged in toilet water. We're still in debates over who was responsible. But unfortunately none of us were in the right mind to remember. Luckily I couldn't think of anything I wanted for Christmas and now a new phone sounds oh so sweet.

On a side note, I'm extremely psyched to finally be getting a website together. I stayed awake till 4:00 a.m working on it and can definitely see it becoming my new baby. I love making these small stepping stones towards accomplishing my goal. I am probably the most technologically challenged girl you know- but I did the best I could for now.

Tomorrow I'm meeting with my friend Justin who designs websites for a living. He'll be adding on the capabilities to order and shop on the site. As well as making the photos fit the page much better than I've done. I know he's going to bring some great ideas to the table and I look forward to working with him :)

Finalllly. One more exciting piece of news to announce: The Richard & Bancroft family is expanding. Sunday I'll be adopting a 6 week old German Shepard mix. Her litter was found in a drain pipe in Mississippi and are being bottle and hand-raised by friends of the family. I can't wait to have a little shadow and jogging buddy...